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Fiction. Could It Be So? (Gibbs/Ducky)
TITLE: Could It Be So?
AUTHOR: Ashleigh Anpilova
FANDOM: NCIS
PAIRING: Leroy Jethro Gibbs/Donald 'Ducky' Mallard
GENRE: Slash
SUB-GENRE: Established Relationship
SUMMARY: Gibbs tells Ducky something that devastates him.
RATING: PG
WORD COUNT: 500
DISCLAIMER: I don't own these characters, nor am I making any money from them. I merely borrow them from time to time.



"Say that again, Jethro?" Ducky stared up at Jethro and tried to quell the fear he felt inside him. He told himself he'd misheard; he told himself Jethro couldn't have said what he'd said.

Reddened eyes in a face lined with pain and self-disgust stared down at him; Ducky saw a slight tremble at the edge of Jethro's mouth. He wanted to stop Jethro from speaking, even though he'd asked him to repeat himself. He wanted to turn away, to walk away, to run away; he wanted to be anywhere, doing anything other than standing in their sitting room staring up at the man he loved.

Jethro swallowed hard and put his hands on Ducky's shoulders. "Shannon and Kelly aren't dead; they're in the Witness Protection Program and I'm," he stopped speaking and tightened his grip on Ducky's shoulders, pulling Ducky nearer to him. Ducky continued to stare upwards; now he saw tears shining in Jethro's eyes. "And I'm going to join them, Duck."

With a half-sob, Jethro gathered Ducky into his arms and held him tightly, so tightly Ducky could barely breathe. "I'm so sorry, Duck," he whispered, his lips on Ducky's ear, "I'm so very sorry, but I have to join them. You understand, don't you?" Now he pushed Ducky away and gazed down at him. His look begged Ducky to tell him he did understand; pleaded with Ducky not to make a fuss.

Ducky felt ice begin to creep through his veins, chilling him beyond any cold he had ever before known as he stared up at the man he would always love. The man who with a few words had just destroyed anything that was good in his life. "Of course I understand, Jethro," he said mechanically. "I've always know I was only -"

"Don't!" Jethro snarled; again he gripped Ducky's shoulders, this time so tightly Ducky knew there would be bruises. "Don't say it."

Ducky sighed softly. "But it is true, is it not, my dear?" Silently he dared Jethro to lie to him.

For what seemed like eternity they just stared at one another, before Jethro made a choked noise and gathered Ducky back into his arms. "Oh, Duck," he kissed Ducky's head. "I do love you."

"I know, Jethro." Ducky spoke quietly and with a deep seated sadness. He had no need to add the words they both knew were true. He rested his head against Jethro's shoulder, closed his eyes and prayed to a God he'd stopped believing in that his time left on this earth would end soon.

With a gasp Ducky woke up; his body was soaked with sweat, his pulse was racing, he was trembling. "Jethro?" he whispered. As he saw his sleeping lover, he reached for Jethro's hand.

It had been a dream. A nightmare. It wasn't real. It wasn't so. Jethro hadn't left him. It was just a dream.

But as he lay back down, his mind asked the question he'd considered many times 'could it be so'?

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sharpiesgal From: sharpiesgal Date: 22nd June 2012 14:59 (UTC) (Link)
*looks at Six*

That's not nice to do to poor Ducky.
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 22nd June 2012 15:04 (UTC) (Link)
Six is twitching his nose in his 'me, I'm just an innocent bunny' way. Hmmmm.

No, it wasn't nice at all, Six.

Thank you for reading.
angstytimelord From: angstytimelord Date: 22nd June 2012 15:12 (UTC) (Link)
Thank goodness it was only a dream! I hope that if it ever came down to that, Gibbs would choose Ducky. He's obviously the ONLY choice!
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 22nd June 2012 16:20 (UTC) (Link)
It was only a dream, yes . . .

One would hope so.

I actually do have a longish story in mind for this idea.

Thank you for reading.
angstytimelord From: angstytimelord Date: 22nd June 2012 21:02 (UTC) (Link)
Ooooh, another story for this bunny? Can't wait to read it! You've turned me into a major Gibbs/Ducky fan!
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 23rd June 2012 08:15 (UTC) (Link)
It's one I've had in mind for a year or so *wry grin* I know exactly what's going to happen, I just need to get my act together and write it.

I was hoping by writing this wee piece it might get my brain into working on the long one.

*Beams* I'm so happy to have done that.
ashley_pitt From: ashley_pitt Date: 22nd June 2012 22:08 (UTC) (Link)
Oh poor Ducky.
He is sometimes afraid that Jethro loves somebody more.

Truth be told, the only ones that could ever pull them apart are Shannon and Kelly.
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 23rd June 2012 08:15 (UTC) (Link)
I know.

Oh, indeed.

That is very true.

Thank you for reading.
caffyolay From: caffyolay Date: 22nd June 2012 22:08 (UTC) (Link)
Oh my gosh. :-S

You write far too well, m'dear!
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 23rd June 2012 08:16 (UTC) (Link)
I was in an angsty mood.

*Blushes* Thank you very much, m'dear.
caffyolay From: caffyolay Date: 23rd June 2012 08:23 (UTC) (Link)
Good morning!

You certainly were. Gosh. I'd kind of forgotten these kind of issues in NCIS. :-(

My pleasure.
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 23rd June 2012 08:27 (UTC) (Link)
Good morning to you, too.

That's me angst and death one minute, fluffy and romantic the next. They do indeed.

*Smiles*

Oh, and I may have had a slightly different idea for the R/B school boy story we were talking about yesterday; a different way for it to 'happen'.
caffyolay From: caffyolay Date: 23rd June 2012 09:36 (UTC) (Link)
That's me angst and death one minute, fluffy and romantic the next.

LOL!!!!! Me too... though as far as I can remember I've not done death yet, so you're one up on me. ;-))))))

8-D <- That's me grinning with anticipation... *bounces*

nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 23rd June 2012 10:34 (UTC) (Link)
*Smiles* I have quite a penchant for death fics *sighs* Rather like you penchant for ghostly happenings *g*

*Eyes The Good Enabler*
caffyolay From: caffyolay Date: 23rd June 2012 13:14 (UTC) (Link)
Funny how we develop these penchants for weird things isn't it?

The Good Enabler is egging you on has just emailed you with her opinion on *cough* your story idea. :-)
ahavia From: ahavia Date: 22nd June 2012 22:10 (UTC) (Link)
What a problem! Even telling Jethro the dream would hurt them both.
Hugs, Ahavia
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 23rd June 2012 08:16 (UTC) (Link)
*Nods* You are spot on, Ahavia,

Thank you and thank you for reading.
fanfromfla From: fanfromfla Date: 23rd June 2012 14:35 (UTC) (Link)
Oh my, you really had me going there! Very well-written. I think that nightmare scenario totally "could be so."
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 24th June 2012 08:31 (UTC) (Link)
Thank you - it's good to know I did have you going.

You never know. Thanks for reading and commenting.
alidiabin From: alidiabin Date: 24th June 2012 06:21 (UTC) (Link)
*eyes up your angst bunny, and hands him some food*

I like it.

Very painful, very Ducky to think like that.
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 24th June 2012 08:32 (UTC) (Link)
He thanks you very much and runs off with food!

Thank you very much.

I'm glad to hear you can see Ducky thinking in this way.
kalliekat From: kalliekat Date: 24th June 2012 07:20 (UTC) (Link)
it so "could be so" which leaves it as a permanent niggle in the back of ones mind.
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 24th June 2012 08:32 (UTC) (Link)
I know :-(

Thank you for reading.
heathersparrows From: heathersparrows Date: 26th June 2012 11:38 (UTC) (Link)
That was frightening. And so well-written and believable. It could happen. But I'm happy it was just a dream.
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 26th June 2012 12:15 (UTC) (Link)
Thank you very much indeed.
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