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Alphabet Meme. Gibbs/Ducky (NCIS)
TITLE: Cuts So Deep
AUTHOR: Ashleigh Anpilova
PAIRING: Leroy Jethro Gibbs/Donald 'Ducky' Mallard
GENRE: Slash
SUB-GENRE: Established Relationship. AR
SUMMARY: Ducky hadn't expected to hurt so much after his mother died.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Written for femme_slash_fan: M - Mother. This story is an AR story as in it Gibbs knew about Ducky's mother's death from the off. (12/36)
DISCLAIMER: I don't own these characters, nor am I making any money from them. I merely borrow them from time to time.

When the nursing home called to tell Ducky the news about his mother, he felt his heart had splintered. The pain was so bad and cut so deep.

He wasn't certain why the news had hit him so hard. He'd been expecting it; he'd even wished for it because he'd hated to see his beloved mother suffering so much. He'd hated seeing the strong-willed, intelligent woman reduced to a mental and physical shadow of her former self.

He somehow managed to say the right things, to thank the nursing home for calling him, to thank them for the care they'd given his mother before saying goodbye and replacing the phone on the table. Or at least trying to; his hand shook so much, his eyes were so full of tears he missed and heard the faint thump as the phone hit the floor.

The next moment the door was flung open and Jethro hurried into the room. "Duck, you okay? I heard - Duck? Ah, Duck." And Ducky found himself gathered into strong arms and held in a fierce, loving embrace. "I am so sorry, Duck," Jethro murmured into his ear.

Ducky sighed softly as he let Jethro's sweater soak up his tears. Although the pain of his loss still cut into him deeply, now he was being held and comforted by Jethro he felt a little better. He accepted the comfort, love and support Jethro offered him and let it help to sooth him.

Finally he lifted his head and looked up. "Thank you, my dear," he said, pulling out his handkerchief and wiping his eyes. "I confess I do not know why it has affected me so deeply, why it hurts so much. We've been expecting it for some time. I thought it would be a relief as her suffering would have ended and she would be at peace. I thought I was prepared."

Jethro slid his hand up into Ducky's hair. "Don't think you're ever prepared, Duck. Not when you love someone. When Mom . . ." He trailed off.

Ducky put his handkerchief away and touched Jethro's cheek. "But that was different, Jethro, you were a young boy. I am an elderly grown man."

Jethro shook his head. "A mom's a mom, Duck. Age doesn't matter. You loved her. She was your mom." Jethro's tone was serious, as was the look in his eyes as he stared down at Ducky.

Ducky felt more tears surge up into his eyes at Jethro's words. But he knew they weren't just tears for himself, but  also tears for the young boy his lover had been when he'd lost his mother; tears even for any 'child' who loses their mother. He smiled a little. "You are quite right, Jethro. Thank you."

Jethro shrugged. "Nothing to thank me for, Duck. I just say it as it is. Now you want me to call the kids? You know they'll want to know. They love you too."

Ducky nodded. "Thank you, my dear. I would appreciate that.

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Current Mood: hopeful hopeful

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sexycazzy From: sexycazzy Date: 23rd February 2012 14:51 (UTC) (Link)
That is what should've happened on the show! :D
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 23rd February 2012 16:59 (UTC) (Link)
It would have been wonderful, I must say. Ducky needed his family and in particular Jethro at that time.

Thank you for reading.
not2bscene From: not2bscene Date: 23rd February 2012 15:00 (UTC) (Link)

Thank you.

This was done to perfection.

My own mother passed last August. She, and we who love her had been praying for and thought ourselves ready. We all crashed into grief...

Well, I'll leave the story-telling to Ducky.

nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 23rd February 2012 17:02 (UTC) (Link)

Re: Thank you.

Thank you very much indeed.

Oh, I am sorry to hear about your loss. *Hugs* It must have been a very difficult time for you all.

Thank you so much.
katje0711 From: katje0711 Date: 23rd February 2012 17:16 (UTC) (Link)
That's very touching and sweet.
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 23rd February 2012 17:24 (UTC) (Link)
Thank you.
femme_slash_fan From: femme_slash_fan Date: 23rd February 2012 17:38 (UTC) (Link)
Wow. This is amazing... and *hugs for Ducky*

nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 23rd February 2012 18:21 (UTC) (Link)
Thank you very much indeed.

I'm really glad you enjoyed it.
femme_slash_fan From: femme_slash_fan Date: 25th February 2012 16:27 (UTC) (Link)
You're welcome and I really did.
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 26th February 2012 11:25 (UTC) (Link)
I'm glad you did.
sharpiesgal From: sharpiesgal Date: 23rd February 2012 17:41 (UTC) (Link)
Very poiginant and painful.

*eyes Six*

He needs to lay off the deathfics for awhile.
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 23rd February 2012 18:21 (UTC) (Link)
Thank you, my dear.

He does. He really does.

I'm hoping the next one will be lighter. *Eyes him too*
ashley_pitt From: ashley_pitt Date: 24th February 2012 01:18 (UTC) (Link)
Yes, this is the way it should have been on the show.
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 24th February 2012 11:56 (UTC) (Link)
It would have been nice.

Thank you for reading.
kalliekat From: kalliekat Date: 24th February 2012 06:32 (UTC) (Link)
just right. as it should have been!
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 24th February 2012 11:57 (UTC) (Link)
Thank you very much.

It would have been nice to have seen something like that.
birggitt From: birggitt Date: 29th February 2012 01:03 (UTC) (Link)
Ah, Ducky! *hugs him*
And you did right Jethro. You did it astoundingly right!
And why they didn't show this in the show? Seriously, I think U'd enjoy it a lot more if you were writing the scripts =D

Touching and beautiful, my friend :')
nakeisha From: nakeisha Date: 29th February 2012 13:45 (UTC) (Link)
I know. Poor man.

He did indeed.

*Smiles* I wish they had have done something like this, I must say. And it was gen in effect. So they could have done. Why, thank you.

Thank you so much.
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